Monday, February 9, 2009

Can I get a hand clap?

I look for any trace that's left of what it used to be,
I take a deep breath, hoping the air carries you with it,
But it's gone, the scent of summer left with the coming of a frosty, bitter winter.
I hate the feeling I get in winter.
I like snow.....But the cold leaves me angry and hollow.
I miss the summer so much, I sit here, waiting and waiting for it to return and smack me in the face with a warm, welcoming sense that there is absolutely nothing to worry about.
Winter can leave now, and go back to the southern hemisphere, I've really had enough.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Can it start in the ever after?


Is there a point?

Why do we date in high school?

Sure, we want someone to be there for us and we want to feel that sense of true emotion from another..

But isn't high school about having fun?

Aren't teenagers supposed to rebel?

Are our relationships going to be lost in a sea of morally unright doings and lies?

Are we setting ourselves up to get hurt?

Or is it real?

I know many people who started dating in high school and now are happily married, but would they have eventually met up after high school if they never started dating?

If we have only one soul mate, can't they wait until we're done being caught up in the drama of a teenagers life?

Or do we have to hold onto them now so that they don't float away?

Monday, February 2, 2009

Whaaaaat?


Perfection. We throw this word around as if it’s an actual possibility. Is perfection really even worth trying to reach? Why stride for a status that’s impossible? Sure, you may be ‘perfect’ to every person you pass on the street today. Will they still feel that way tomorrow? Maybe. Maybe not. Our world is changing every second. The trends are forever departing and will continue to turn; Weaving, in and out of style. Our society is so caught up in this ‘perfection’ that looks have begun to overrule smarts. Is that right?

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Does it end in the night?

There's this thing, i can't figure out what it is, but i know that i want it. a lot.

I feel like it's out of my reach.

I feel like i could have it in a heartbeat, but something's holding me back..
Something tells me if i got what i wanted it would mess a lot of things up, and i'm not sure if i'm ready to give up my life all for something that might not last.

i feel lost, like i'm alone in my decisions.

I'm bored with my life, but nothing is wrong with it.

is it wrong to risk everything for excitement?


Tuesday, January 27, 2009

(: hey girl hey


do you have that one person that you can be yourself with?

the person that understands you unlike anyone?

the one you share absolutely everything with?

a best friend?

a soul mate?

someone who you look up to..the one who's NOT overrated?

I do.

Or...did.

We've drifted apart a lot, but i still feel really close to her.

I feel like she's the only one i can truely trust.

It's an amazing feeling to know that you have someone who's there for you whether you're hyper or crying, who's alway emotionally available for you.

i'm very grateful (:

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Can you really trust anyone?
Ah.....maybe not.
Probably not.
I've come to the conclusion that everyone talks behind everyone's back.
Many people walk around with knives and swords sticking out of their backs.
Some don't bleed, some do.
I'm sick of GOSSIP.
seriously just shut up and mind your own business.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009


remember those days, cooking with grandma, when everything was simple and perfect in your eyes?
i miss it.

i miss my childhood.

i miss not having homework,

not having responsibility,

not worrying about anything.

remember when your mom was the greatest person who ever lived?

and your dad was the smartest?

i miss it,

they miss it,

i want to go back ):

Sunday, January 11, 2009

silently, beginning to wonder.

is anything forever?
can anything last beyond death itself?
i find myself saying the word 'forever' a lot,
and i'm beginning to wonder what it all means...
when is the end of forever?
when you die do the promises you've made just fade away?
should i really be worried about this?
probably not.
asadfgjk;
i think to much.

Friday, January 9, 2009

?

I've been looking for a way to get myself out of this.
Pondering, wishing, just wondering if there will even come a time when none of it matters.
But, is that what I truely want?
Do I want everything I've worked so hard for to just go to waste?
Do i want everyone to quit caring?
I'm really not sure anymore.
I'm not sure if there would be a point to all of that.
To try so hard for it all to not even matter?
What do I want?
Maybe if everything just stayed the same, it would be alright.
Maybe.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

"Friendship"
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What would we do without friendship?
Is it possible to live without it?
I don't think it is.
Think of all the lonely people who go insane or commit suicide...
I literally live for my friends!
I don't think I could get up everyday and go to school if I didn't have friends.
It would be like being a lone animal trying to survive in the wild.
Wtihout strong will to survive, they quickly die off.
I'm very greatful for my friends, without them I don't think I could live!