is it ever enough? i try and try and still, nothing. what is it worth? this much? not at all. well..maybe, maybe if i give it my all and really commit it will work? maybe it's just laziness taking over me. maybe i don't really know you. maybe it's not supposed to happen. maybe it's all just a hoax. i real so unreal lately, so fake. i can't figure it out. why is everything coming all at once? is this really what i want? what you want? is it best? can we be sure? can this be real?