healing.

it's hard to move on
i can't
it was different
now...i don't know who i used to be
everything is leaving and fading away
stay. no...go
wait...
let me think.........
i can't get better
it feels too weird
i don't think it's supposed to be like this
images of before keep leaking into my thoughts
they won't go away
i feel like i turned my back something that could grow to be perfect
you told me you would never forget
do you still know what it is?
have you found it?
all my thoughts are clogged up and i can't untangle them
i'm trying so hard to make sense of everything
but i can't, this situation really is not working out
i can't do this anymore
it feels broken, like shattered glass
i'm comparing it to everything, but it just doen't make sense
where do we go from here?
i don't want to be second best, but i can't shake the feeling that it will stay like this forever.
i don't understand
i don't think this is right
i don't like it at all
my head is pounding with all these clashing thoughts
i'm sorry i'm like this, i really can not control it
everyone is lying and pretending and everything is so different now
the cloudy weather is driving my crazy
i need sun, i need sun, i need sun
i need sleep.