Why?

Who are you? You murmur something under your breath......good good.....now tell me the REAL you. I really don't even know you anymore. You're caught up in this sucky situation and I can't comprehend what you've become. What are you doing to yourself? I want to pull you away from it. But, you crave it. You want to rebel and be irresponsible. Why? Come back! Please. You're tearing me apart. Stop this. Who sent you an invitation to be "dumb"? Reject it. Use your brain. You're just hurting yourself and me. Wait. Have you always been like this? Did I ever know you? Are you just a big joke? I want to believe it's a lie. I want to believe it's a faze....but, is it? Can I trust you? Or should I walk away? You say all these things and I want to believe.....what exactly is the truth?