?

I've been looking for a way to get myself out of this.
Pondering, wishing, just wondering if there will even come a time when none of it matters.
But, is that what I truely want?
Do I want everything I've worked so hard for to just go to waste?
Do i want everyone to quit caring?
I'm really not sure anymore.
I'm not sure if there would be a point to all of that.
To try so hard for it all to not even matter?
What do I want?
Maybe if everything just stayed the same, it would be alright.
Maybe.