doubt it.

you're it.

you're actually the thing i want to be.

sure, you could say i'm "jealous."

i might not agree.

you're just so perfect i can't believe it sometimes.

and you know it.

you know you're hott shit.

i just wish i were you.

everything would be easier and my life would be so perfect.

hahahahahhahahhaha DOUBT IT.

I wish you could see how dumb you are sometimes.

healing.

it's hard to move on
i can't
it was different
now...i don't know who i used to be
everything is leaving and fading away
stay. no...go
wait...
let me think.........
i can't get better
it feels too weird
i don't think it's supposed to be like this
images of before keep leaking into my thoughts
they won't go away
i feel like i turned my back something that could grow to be perfect
you told me you would never forget
do you still know what it is?
have you found it?
all my thoughts are clogged up and i can't untangle them
i'm trying so hard to make sense of everything
but i can't, this situation really is not working out
i can't do this anymore
it feels broken, like shattered glass
i'm comparing it to everything, but it just doen't make sense
where do we go from here?
i don't want to be second best, but i can't shake the feeling that it will stay like this forever.
i don't understand
i don't think this is right
i don't like it at all
my head is pounding with all these clashing thoughts
i'm sorry i'm like this, i really can not control it
everyone is lying and pretending and everything is so different now
the cloudy weather is driving my crazy
i need sun, i need sun, i need sun
i need sleep.

yeah?

you you you.

why is it always about you?

why is it always what you want?

you want candy....you get someone to get it for you.

you want sex....well there you go, you got it.

you want to party....you don't remember anything.

this is your life.

is this really what you want?

why?

so you get regret it in the morning?

you want to live your life in the shadows of everyone?

be like EVERYONE else?

you don't stand up for yourself.

it's like you don't care.

good.

if that's really what you want for yourself have fun.

you can sure go smoke your fucking cigar but get out of my face.

is it ever enough? i try and try and still, nothing. what is it worth? this much? not at all. well..maybe, maybe if i give it my all and really commit it will work? maybe it's just laziness taking over me. maybe i don't really know you. maybe it's not supposed to happen. maybe it's all just a hoax. i real so unreal lately, so fake. i can't figure it out. why is everything coming all at once? is this really what i want? what you want? is it best? can we be sure? can this be real?

Sweet Sixteen

is this how it feels?

the freedom, the carelessness?

is this what it all comes down to?

have we waited all this time for....this?

i really don't feel different.

i feel the same as a month ago....

why is there so high of a price put on our inocence?

nothing feels "right".

is it supposed to?

are things supposed to change drastically?

i have so many questions that can't be answered.

am i different than all the rest?

and so this is how it is?

image.

we beat ourselves up and put ourselves down, just because we're not as perfect as we think we need to be, but, if you think about it, why do we care so much? why is it so important to be "better" than everyone else? can't we just be equal? can't we share the spotlight? of course not...we'll just keep trying harder and harder until, eventually, there's no where else to go. You can only stay fake for so long. sooner or later your flaws will come out. wouldn't it just be easier to be yourself? and not care about what everyone else thinks?

:)

"I don’t think there’s a word I've ever heard

That captures the innocence of you

And I wouldn’t want one too

And no, I wouldn’t want one to

It’d be like smothering a star

Or covering a work of art

Driving so fast that the view falls apart

Like I do

Without you."

Why?

Who are you? You murmur something under your breath......good good.....now tell me the REAL you. I really don't even know you anymore. You're caught up in this sucky situation and I can't comprehend what you've become. What are you doing to yourself? I want to pull you away from it. But, you crave it. You want to rebel and be irresponsible. Why? Come back! Please. You're tearing me apart. Stop this. Who sent you an invitation to be "dumb"? Reject it. Use your brain. You're just hurting yourself and me. Wait. Have you always been like this? Did I ever know you? Are you just a big joke? I want to believe it's a lie. I want to believe it's a faze....but, is it? Can I trust you? Or should I walk away? You say all these things and I want to believe.....what exactly is the truth?

to: people who think you're better than everyone else
SHUT UP.

KYLE LARSEN

IS A DUMB KYKE
who deserves zero friends :)