the fiiiiiirst snow :)

this morning when i walked out of the church,

i was blown away by a strong gust of wind.

i looked to my feet, all i saw was white.

the land was covered with powder soft snow.

i love winter.

Being cold gives you a sense that you're still alive.

i love layering lots of warm clothes

and wrapping up in warm blankets

and cuddling with the ones we love

and drinking hot cocoa :)

the snow and ice gets us early outs and days off from school,

but it also puts our lives in danger.

either way, i love it :)

Halloween.

What is it?

Why do we celebrate it?

I never really thought about it..

The only thing I ever really cared about was candy.

But now I've found that there may actually be a meaning to the day.

I read that Halloween was, in ancient times, believed to be a day that the barrier between the living and the dead dissapears.

I've been thinking.....

There's no way that's at all possible...

right?

Homework.

The teachers really need to cut back on the homework,
I barely get any sleep at night,
and then they complain when we fall asleep in class...
so we stay awake all day,
go to sports,
come home,
TRY to do our homework,
but we can't....
Or at least, I can't.
I can't focus on my homework because I'm exhausted from the day's events.
But, I try to do it and end up not understanding it whatsoever.
I get about 3 hours of sleep, then the cycle starts all over again.
SERIOUSLY, students have lives...
We don't have time to be thinking about our studies the WHOLE DAY.
I just wish the teachers would cut us some slack.

Falllll.

I look outside, and all I see is leaves.
Leaves everywhere.
Leaves, leaves, leaves.
The leaves need to leave.
I guess I could rake them....but I would rather not.
I'm too lazy.
I wish winter would come.....or summer.
I hate spring.
I hate it a lot.
It's a big wet mess.
No thanks.
And I'm not too fond of fall at the moment....
Leaves are EVERYWHERE.
I had to close the window in my room because they were flying in our house!

revealing a celebration..

Last night, i went to my friend, kaila's, sweet sixteen party.
It was, truly, a good time.
I found myself in a jumble of laughter, hyperness, and even a slight sense of worry.
I was noticing absolutely every single detail of every little thing that was going on around me, and it was freaking me out.
I could feel the music, taking control of my body.
Every single person around me was giving off their own individual vibe.
There were a lot of feelings flowing through me.
At one point, I got so confused by the flashing lights, loud noises, and dirty grinding that I had to have a moment to take it all in.
I quickly made my way off the dance floor, grabbed some punch, and went and sat, alone.
I watched, as everyone kept dancing, and couldn't even think.
My thoughts were, simply, blank.
What was going on?
I knew I had to get out of there.
So, I left, with a friend, just to get away for a little while.
When I came back, everything felt like it was in slow motion.
The people around me seemed to disappear, one by one, slowly just fading away.
A lot of characters were being exposed to me, sides of my friends that I had never seen before.
Dance really shows a lot about a person.
The way a person expresses themselves through dance shows something about their inner-character that you might not be able to see by just talking to them.
Anyways, I had an awesome night, and it's something I will never forget :)

what is music?

it's a form of art...

but what does it mean?

who came up with it?

music is...

there's no perfect word you could plug into that sentence.

nothing can describe the feeling you get when sound flows through your soul..

you can only feel it yourself, you cannot have it be explained to you..

A painter paints pictures on canvas. But musicians paint their pictures on silence.

~Leopold Stokowski

"hello?"

I, personally, am so sick of cell phones.
They are a major waste of time and money.
All people do these days is sit around, waiting for calls or texts.
I am just as guilty as the next person, but even when we hang out with our friends, we constantly text other people, it's so annoying.
Cell phones do more harm than good.
They can cause carpal tunnel of the thumbs, arthritis, and even the sound waves can be harmful.
I wish I wasn't so dependant on my phone, but I think everyone gets attatched to theirs, it's a terrible addiction to have, and extremely hard to break.

all day, i was in a daze.
my thoughts kept blurring into a big mess.
all i could think was, why?
why do terrible things happen to great people?
why is our society so judgemental of personal style?
why is George w. Bush our president?
all logical questions....
but where is the answer?
is there an answer?
can every question have an answer, or do some people's questions just get lost as thoughts, never answered?