i want to argue, but there's nothing to say...

ever thought you weren't pretty enough? skinny enough? smart enough? PERFECT enough?...well, i've been having that feeling a lot lately. when i walk through the hallway of my school, i feel every single eye judging me. i'm just paranoid, right? maybe not. maybe we all judge each other and just never realize it. i feel eyes, staring straight through me, and i wonder, am i just as bad as them? do i do it too? i never actually thought about it. why is our society so caught up in looks and cliche movements of life that fade away within a matter of weeks? why can't we all just forget about what everyone thinks and let our guards down?

moderation of the best.

perfection.
we all know we can't have it.
but then why do we attempt to achieve it?
it's all nonsense to me, why someone would try to be perfect.
i'm content, actually quite happy, dealing with imperfections in my life.
they give me a challenge and keep me busy,
and also help me to become a better person.

just our hands, clasped so tight.

love. have you ever had someone's love crawl into every molecule of your body? make you shiver from head to toe? has that someone controlled your every thought? the experience helps us find our faults and free our emotions...but at the same time, when that love fades, a whole new set of emotions appear. jealousy, envy, hate...just a few. why do we let love die? if the feeling of love is so amazing, then why throw it all away? i think we just get sick of trying so hard. shouldn't love be easy? shouldn't it be someting that doesn't take thought? we take love for granted. and loose it. but, why?

as the leaves turn to gray...

we all do it. we cheat. but, why? what's the point? we lie because we have something to hide. we cheat because we're curious and greedy. we hurt others to make ourselves feel better about our own problems. does it really make us feel better in the long run? no, it builds up guilt. lies make trust disappear into thin air. whether it relate to schoolwork, games, boyfriends...cheating is something that we're all guilty of. but, why? why do we feel the need to cheat? i think it's because we want to see how much we can get away with. there's really no other point to it. sure, it can raise your grade, score, bank account, self esteem, whatever. but at what cost? you could work harder for better grades that are YOUR OWN, but some just don't have the drive or want to put the effort into their own achievements, they would rather accept other's. i think it's sad when people cheat on the ones they love, no one deserves that. NO ONE.

tanning beds; not a great idea.

So. I thought i was looking a little pale and i decided it was time for my weekly tanning session. So, i made an appointment, grabbed my tanning lotion, and was on my way to a nice fake tan. It had been a long day and I decided I would just take a nap and wake up in time to flip to my side. I fell asleep, and didn't wake up until my session was completely done. GREAT. now i'm burnt on my front and back and my sides are still super white. Also, I'm almost positive i burnt my caruncula lacrimalis (the inside corner of an eye). Tanning is not safe, the best way to go is in the sun unprotected for a small amount of time, then it's good to lather up with sunscreen. Don't get caught going "sun-burning" in a tanning bed.

school time!

School has finally begun! Oh my goodness, this last week has been a big mixture of emotions. I'm so sad that summer is gone, but at the same time excited to get back on track and start having some good education to fuel my brain! It seems like summer went by so fast. Anyways, this year is off to a good start! I have great teachers, which of course makes the class 1984375 times better..! And i got all the courses i wanted! This blog is actually an assignment for my awesome journalistic writing class! It's actually a very easy and extremely fun assignment. I mean, really? What other class to you get to vent to the world for a grade? Not many! Alright, well i think I'm going to work on some other homework. Peace out girl scout!